Vanity

I had my haircut 2 days ago…

I’ve been dying to cut my hair for the longest time but the people around me have been discouraging me. Ruy eventually gave me the go signal and so I decided to chop off 7 inches worth of hair. =)

What’s the point of getting a hair cut if there’s no shock value right?

 This was my inspiration, although I told my stylist to fix it in such a way that I can still go to work.

So he cut it that way (it took soooo long) and then he styled it in a less funky way.

This annoyingly pa-cute photo of myself doesn’t do the cut justice. Mac really outdid himself with this cut.

Here’s the issue though. Stupid Olivia washed her hair before going to sleep last night, then fell asleep  with damp hair. When she woke up, guess what she had? Hair standing up at the back of her head!! Seriously standing up.  The problem is, I didn’t have time to do anything with it cause Ruy was already going to be late for work.

Thank God for scarves!!

Those who know me would be aware that I ask the weirdest questions out of nowhere…for example I asked Ruy “If you were going to be given 20million dollars but then one person you know now would cease to exist for you. All memories and associations gone, would you take the money? ” …today I asked him another weird question…

Would you rather be smarter than you are prettier or prettier than you are smarter?  — a follow up question would be, do you think you are prettier than you are smarter now, or is it the other way around?

Ruy said that he thinks he is smarter than he is prettier. He also said that that’s how he wants it to be as being stupid doesn’t appeal to him. I LOVE the answer…I hate stupid men, they make me want to throw up…

I’ve been thinking about my answer though, and to be honest I can’t decide which one I’d prefer and if I’m smarter or prettier…This is a tough question! I’m curious as to other people’s answers though…

What do you guys say? Are you prettier than you are smarter or smarter than you are prettier…and what would you rather be?

“You have a girl, but she’s on the dark side…” these were the first words I heard in this beautiful planet called earth. Legend has it that these were the words uttered by my mother’s gynecologist upon seeing me emerge from my mother’s C-section.

You see, my mother is very fair and is often mistaken for a non-Filipina. She’s not gorgeous but she’s so fair Filipino’s find her attractive (you know how it is in the
Philippines). Now my lola is of the same color, and even my lolo whom my lola calls ‘native’ and ‘bisoy’ is fair as well. Needless to say I am the darkest in the family (i’m also the shortest but that’s a different story altogether) and it’s quite hard to forget it.

Why do people place so much premium on fairness? Why do I place such a high premium on it? Sure I wouldn’t go as far as buying Likas Papaya or Splash Whitening something but I did buy an SPF 90 sunblock which I apply religiously (every 30 minutes) every time I do any outdoor activity.  I rationalize and say that I have really dark features (deep set eyes, dark hair, etc) and look better and cleaner with fairer features…but in reality  it’s all bullshit and it doesn’t matter consequently. I’d still be in the same job whether I was darker or fairer. I’d have the same friends, I’d marry the same guy, I’d be carrying the same kids (but maybe a few shades lighter…) hehehe.

That’s why I found Ruy so attractive when we were just dating. He was the only guy I’ve ever dated who didn’t care too much about appearances. (Yeah yeah so I’ve been dating stupid men, I know that now). Initially it was a bit frustrating cause I was so used to guys caring so much about appearances, and here was a guy who barely looked at my newly blowdried hair and only noticed that I had green eyes (contacts people) 4 weeks after I started wearing them. Then it became liberating…then it became wonderful. Imagine having someone who tells you you’re beautiful and you know it has nothing to do with the way you applied your eyeshadow…haaaaaaaaay  

Spanish Siren, Greek Goddess and Irresistible Indian…love it!!

(NOTE: Those who have seen me in person would actually notice that my nose actually grew bigger! Proof that I am indeed pregnant…)

Tomorrow will be D Day for my long awaited Congenital Anomaly Screening…basically it’s a glorified ultrasound where they actually do what they were supposed to do during the other ultrasounds, except this time they charge us more for it. 

During this procedure they will be measuring distance between the eyes, width of the neck (indicators of Down Syndrome), number of fingers, chambers of the heart. Needless to say I’m practically wetting myself with fear. It’s going to be such a nerve wracking wait for me and I don’t know if I’ll be able to sleep tonight. I’m thisclose to dragging Ruy’s butt to St. Luke’s today…but no, I must calm myself and wait. It’s not like a couple of hours of waiting would make a difference. I just feel so paranoid.

Together with the important stuff we’ll hopefully be able to determine the baby’s gender once and for all. So many people have told me that they think it will be a girl…I also feel like it’s going to be a girl but to be honest I really want a boy. Why do I want a boy? Well I want to have another kid and I think it’s funner to have a kuya than an ate…at least you have a protector there. I am also not prepared to share my make-up with another person…hehehe

On a different note…guess what I was for halloween?

Sunday’s are my amazing grace days. Nope I’m not talking about a church related experience although I think it’s a very spiritual experience as well. It’s my day of pampering myself with the Amazing Grace line from Philosophy. I am a HUGE fan of this brand specially of their Amazing Grace line.

I start my bath using my amazing grace shampoo. While the shampoo is soaking on my hair I start by using my Amazing Grace Olive Oil Body Scrub. Then I rinse off both the shampoo and the scrub. I then put the Amazing Grace Conditioner on my hair. I then use the Liquid Soap to wash my body….I once again rinse off. (of course I also use my Neutrogena facial wash and PH Care but those are not Amazing Grace producs unfortunately)

The experience doesn’t stop there. Once I’m dried I start putting on the Amazing Grace lotion. Ruy’s a fan of the lotion although he doesn’t know it. He just keeps on saying I smell so good but I don’t tell him that it’s the lotion he smells…a woman is entitled to some secrets afterall.

I then put on the Amazing Grace perfume. No I don’t spritz it on my body, I spray them on my hands…rub my hand together and then rub my hands all over my body. Leaves a more subtle scent in my opinion.

I think days when you go beyond the basics in taking care of your body can be considered spiritual. It’s exalting your body, bringing it to a higher experience. Of course purists would disagree with me, but then those people thought spirituality meant wearing sacks so I don’t think I care about what they think.

I’m babbling…

Andrea is officially 12 weeks (and one day) today and I have gained a total of….ZERO pounds! Damn it! People have been bugging me about it, telling me not to diet. HELLO??!! Do you really think I’d jeopardize Andrea’s future for my vanity?

I’ve been eating healthily since I found out. No junk food (okay I ate one piece of french fries from Angelique) no chocolate, no coffee, no iced tea (or any tea for that matter). I’ve been drowning veggies and fruits. I drink two cups of milk a day. I always have shake and I’ve been eating rice and wheat. What else can I do?

Take today for example. I had cereals and milk plus a glass of milk for breakfast. Then I bought dalandan juice (medium) and orange juice (large) (both with the pulp and both without sugar) which I’m still drinking up to now. Then in a while, I’ll be having a lunch of rice and home made hamonado with a soup of ginisang mais…

That’s how I’ve been trying to eat…I actually feel nauseated already with everything I’ve been trying to eat. I admittedly still can’t finish a sandwhich nor a full cup of rice but I sure as hell have been trying.

So why am I not gaining any weight? Is this bad for Andrea? I’m going to try to see another OB tomorrow if Ruy and I find the time, I hope this person can help me out….HAAAAAAAAYYYYYY

A lot of you know that I adore make-up. I have been ignoring this love of mine for a couple of months now and last Friday I succumbed to temptation and bought several make-up products. Here’s a rundown:

• MAC Amplified Creme Lipstick in this rich red color called Dubonnet. Funny, cause a lot of people who saw me wearing this color said it was beautiful, but when i showed them how red the actual stick was they became afraid. Oh well, I’ve never been afraid of color (or looking like a whore…hehehe)
• MAC Liquid Foundation Select SPF 15. I forgot the shade I bought but this was awesome! It was so light, but there was definitely coverage. I already have powder foundation, cream foundation and I just finished my last bottle of irridiscent liquid foundation. It’s about time I got another one, right? As a side note, it’s funny cause the make-up artist in MAC told me that one should NEVER ever use the liquid foundation by itself. I just nodded but deep inside I was like…BULLSHIT! I know a lot about make-up and the head make-up artist of MAC France just taught 4 months ago the beauty of using your liquid foundation by itself so don’t give me any of this crap because I plan on buying powder anyway.
• MAC Studio Fix Foundation. I really need a compact powder cause all of my powder are loose and come in gargantuan packaging. I bought this because it’s good enough to use on it’s own but at the same time you can layer it on the different foundations.
• MAC Liquid Foundation Brush. I just had to buy it! I already have several foundation brushes but I’ve never been satisfied with the ones I have.
• NARS Blush in Orgasm. A classic shade of course. This cannot replace my favorite blush by Alison Rafaelle but it’s close enough. =) Besides, you can’t beat anything which makes it seem like you just had an orgasm…right?

I’ve been a bad bad girl when it comes to shopping. The bad thing is…I still want more. ENOUGH Olivia…stop it already. Or maybe one last trip to Beauty Bar would do the trick. =)

I have been so busy lately with work and with the latest developments in my life that I have been neglecting a lot of the other aspects of my life, blog included. Imagine my surprise when I looked at my blog today to see that I already have a thousand views for this blog. WOW! Thanks to everyone who regularly visit this blog, please drop me a line so I can link you up. =) Read the rest of this entry »

I’ve lost over 25 pounds yet this is the most unattractive I’ve ever felt in recent history. Ironic isn’t it?

How much does the STD look like what we wanted? 70% a lot of details were left out, the pattern was askew. It was not as black as I wanted. The letters were too thin. The gold looked more yellow than gold. The wrap was supposed to be an envelope but didn’t look like an envelope at all, rather it was a rectangular piece of crap.

For the design, Ruy asked me to let go. He said it’s not worth going back and forth to the shop for those small details. As for the wrap, I asked Ruy to let go. I was just bored waiting there and I had an idea as to how to wrap it to still make it look okay.

I have received several reactions with the STD. I’ve had people squeal in delight and exclaim that it’s gorgeous. I’ve had some like my cousin who looked at it and pushed it aside. My grandmother and mother were distraught that I chose the color black.

I realized that after all the conceptualization and all the work. People will spend 5 seconds looking at it. Then forgetting about it. What a reality check. How many people are really going to remember that I tied my wedding bouquet with an antique lace? Most wouldn’t care. I’ve been spending so many hours planning for things that only I would notice. What a waste of time…yet I’ll probably keep on doing it.

I have lost a grand total of 80 quarter pounders. That’s 20 pounds for your guys who are afraid of Math. Am I thrilled? Not really. My main goal is not to be thin (although that’s a wonderful side effect) but rather to be healthy. Cliche? Maybe so, but it’s true.

I texted Ruy this morning to tell him that I’ve lost 20 pounds all in all, and he said “That’s nice. But how are you feeling?”. I was so touched with that response. It’s rare finding a guy who cares more about your health than how you look. I’ve heard to many stories from my friends and I know that Ruy is a rare breed. hehehe

The best thing about losing weight? Finally being able to fit into old “new” clothes. In the past I went shopping a lot and I have a lot of unused clothing which are beginning to fit. I just found two  pairs of pants one from Top Shop and one from Dorothy Perkins which were both unused. The last time I tried to fit those they couldn’t even get past my thighs. Now I was able to wear them (they were even a bit lose on the thighs)…..BUT I still can’t close them …wahahah. DAMN! 10 more pounds I guess and I’ll be able to use them.