I have been having bouts of depression these past couple of weeks and it really takes a lot for me to kick myself in the rear and tell myself to get over it. I have, in the past 5 years, redefined myself to be an amazing employee. I found old notes from previous jobs and I realized how good I was in managing things. Now that I am not working I find myself practically without an identity. I need to redefine myself but I really don’t know how. Frankly, aside from my family and some friends, I don’t really like the other aspects of my life.
Ruy took the time around a month ago to remind me of how lucky I am with our family. We’re doing okay, I get to spend time with Andrea and according to Ruy “I’m still the same faithful guy as before”…so I should be extremely happy. Sad to say, emotions seldom follow logic and while I’m extremely happy some times, I become extremely sad a few moments after.
I decided last Sunday to approach my day to day life with the same vigor I did work. I started mapping out my days and my goals and by golly it made me feel invigorated. I LOVE IT!
I accomplished everything I set out to do yesterday but I’m sadly a few hours late today because Ruy left home late and because the internet went out for a couple of hours. I can’t believe how happy going down checklists make me feel. Am I abnormal?
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February 10, 2010 at 6:03 pm
Noemi
Checklists are the bomb! Seriously, they help you see what you have achieved, even if in increments. And about emotions and logic – you’ve got that right. Sometimes, you just have to ride out the emotions and wait till you get the logic back.
February 11, 2010 at 11:29 am
vicki
Checklists and organization can save you from drowning. I truly belive that. The logic required puts a box around the emotions that momentarily overwhelm. I do think that the emotions are there as an alarm- that there is something that isn’t right and therefore needs to be thought through. Does that make sense?
February 15, 2010 at 11:48 am
Litzie
Don’t worry Liv. You’re still normal. We get that sometimes. You’re not the only one and if checklists make you sane, then do it. I do checklists and no matter how miniscule the task is, when you see it done, you feel accomplished.