June 2009

I am forever grateful that Ruy and I have our own house already at this stage in our lives. I know we’re very lucky in this sense and that we really have a lot to be thankful for.

I can’t help but long for a bigger house every once in a while so I can have this:

Ruy spends so much time in the kitchen and having something like this would practically turn our kitchen into a family area where we can all hang out.

I also want this:

A wonderful walk in closet which can contain all of Ruy’s junk…hehehe yes, all Ruy. Then I would want to have an exercise room where we can have great exercise equipment which we now WILL USE…wahahah. I want this in particular.

Oh well…soon Olivia, soon.

I am giving myself 2 more months of trying to control my intake and exercising and then I’m going to raise the white flag and I’ll try to look into appetite suppressants already. I was given one 3 years ago by my endocrinologist in order to aid in my hormonal therapy and it was extremely effective for me. It may not be the cheapest thing on earth but I really can’t put a price on health can I?

This morning I met up with fellow moms I bonded with through PLURK. It was such a wonderful experience…rarely do I have the chance to interact with people who are at the same point in life as I am. People who ask the same questions (to praise or not to praise, to spank or not to spank, another kid now?) and who are faced with the same challenges.

We enjoyed ourselves so much we ended up chatting from 12-4pm. Yikes! Till next time ladies.

My daughter is a little, ahmmm, unique. She loves painting and coloring but for the past couple of days she has been insisting on using only the color white while painting on white paper. I could not believe she was wasting paper that way….was the paper not white enough?

I also tried to let her finger paint but the moment she feels the sticky paint on her hands she gets grossed out and shouts “Eww, eww, clean hands”. She also gets disgusted when her teacher tried putting stamps on her hands using custom rubber stamp. You should have seen the look on her face! It was hilarious.  I really don’t get it because the custom rubber stamp had the image of her favorite clown, Gymbo but she just didn’t want anything to do with it. So different from me, I loved putting stamps on my body when I was a kid.

So many people have said that a couple who laughs together stays together longer than those who don’t. If this is true, Ruy and I have gained a few more years of togetherness after laughing our asses off last night while watching this video (and others like it)

The Grind, Les Mills Body Jam, Belly Dancing, Hiphop Abs, Winsor Pilates — what do all of these have in common? They are all exercise videos I have tried at home in the hopes of one day going back to my weight when I was a teenager.

So far nothing was addictive enough for me. I saw another one, which I think is an emerging trend using Kettlebell (it’s almost like a dumbell but it has handles) and it’s called Kettleworx. It promises long, lean muscles which is exactly what I need…will I be able to do this regularly?

Ruy has, in the simplest and most ordinary ways, made me feel that I am his first priority. I can’t put my finger on the specific thing he did but in his own little ways he made me feel so special this week.

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Last Saturday, Ruy announced that he downloaded a movie for us to watch on Father’s day. It’s about a girl who’s in jail cause she killed the husband, the girl was set free but was placed on house arrest. The problem is the ghost of the guy is in their home and he wants to kill the wife.

After Ruy explained that to me, our conversation went something like this:

Liv: Wow. What a heartwarming story Ruy. It makes you feel all warm and fuzzy about relationships.
Ruy: It teaches you lessons.
Liv: And what, pray tell, are these lessons?
Ruy: That you shouldn’t anger your husband cause his ghost will haunt you.
Liv: I think it teaches you not to anger your wife because she will kill you and turn you into a ghost…

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Before getting married, I came up with a list of rules for Ruy. These are basically things he shouldn’t do while driving. Everything on that list came from things he has indeed done in the past. The list includes (but is not limited to)

1. Closing his eyes while driving
2. Pretending to sleep on my shoulder while driving
3. Dancing (this was further broken down into the different types of dances)
4. Tickling me

He now claims that this list does not apply any more cause this was something we agreed on before we were married. Now that we’re married, the contract has been broken. =( Haaay.

Can you ever really have it all? Can anyone at one time claim that they’re happy with every single aspect of their life?

I was tagged by Numi so I’ll be doing what she did in her blog which is basically listing down things we ALWAYS have at home.

1. Mess — hehehe

2. Wipes — Andrea uses several brands our new favorite is the SM Bonus brand. It’s cheap, thick and the smell is quite nice! I personally always have a pack of SoSoft Peppermint Refreshing Wipes in my bag.

3. Hand Wash — We use the house brand from Watson’s…particularly the Magnolia scent.

4. Medicine — we have tums, imodium, mefenamic acid, paracetamol, vitamins for the yaya, and yes even a diet pill or two. Ruy and I have a mini drugstore. 

5. Hershey’s Choco Powder - I use this for baking and for making choco mousse. =) Yum yum

6. Baking Stuff - Cake Flour, AP Flour, Confectionnaire’s Sugar, Brown Sugar, White Sugar, Honey, Cream of Tartar, Baking Soda, Baking Powder. You name it we have it.

7. Spices and other insane ingredients - Ruy is CRAZY about this.  He likes knowing we have everything we need for anything we feel like cooking. Rice wine vinegar, Red Wine Vinegar, Mirin, Hoisin, Fennel, the crazier it is the greater chance that we have it.

8. Baby Stuff - for Andrea of course.

9. TV Shows and Movies - Ruy’s obsessed. He panics when we don’t have new dvds or new downloads.

Wow, that’s it. We’re low maintainance pala!

It’s early in the morning and in a few minutes I’ll have to get ready for work. My emotions about going to work today are a bit complicate. On one hand I am excited cause I have a lot to do and on the other hand I am dreading having to go to work because…I HAVE A LOT TO DO!

This is one of my greatest regrets to date. I was looking at our company’s website and one thing the executives have in common is that they all have degrees in either finance or accounting. Look at the list of the highest paid jobs out there and you can be sure that jobs in finance top the list.

As if those things I stated earlier is not enough for me to fully regret my choice in courses. My team is now in charge of a lot of things related to Billing and I am pretty sure knowing some thing about finance would have been able to help me a lot. Grrr…

I spent some time with my family this week and I was once again reminded of how annoying they are and at the same time how much I love them and vice versa.

It’s sad that I had to get married and be away from them before I realized how loved I was at home.

It’s also somehow ironic how the more I spend time with my family the more I realize that they don’t know me very well. I am always going to be “odd” even in my family. Ruy knows me much better than my family does. Is that normal?

The way I act, the way I speak, the way I think, the songs I listen to and the food I eat are all considered “weird” by my family. I think that’s weird.

A few weeks ago (in Plurk) I talked about the feeling of sadness which rushes over me when I start removing my make up.  I was accused of PMS-ing and of being overly dramatic (duh people as if you didn’t know this already) but no one ever said they too felt the same way. I wonder if that feeling is normal?

I grew up looking fairly normal. I’ve never had huge skin problems nor did I ever require treatment for acne. I consider myself okay looking but there are times when I find myself gross and disgusting. I heard that Dawn Zulueta feels the same way sometimes so I guess I’m not entirely alone in this situation.

The interesting thing for me is that I have gained so much weight now but I have so much less of these situations. I felt more disgusting when I weighed just right. I felt more disgusting when I was dating around and there were more men who say I looked pretty. Why is that?

Now, when I look in the mirror, I like what I see. I like the person staring back at me. Do you?

A topic circulating amongs the moms in plurk is that of dads not spending enough time with their kids. Time of course does not mean watching TV together but it means actually doing things together.

Ruy has always been very willing to help out with Andrea but I have  a feeling that it’s not enough. Andrea is currently obsessed with me so whenever I’m around she ends up going to me. The solution was for Ruy to be solely responsible for Andrea for 2 whole days a week. (we only have 6 days a week, our Mondays start very early and end very late) So I get 2 working days, he gets two working days and we share the weekends.

Ruy had two days this week and I must say that both he and Andrea are now hooked on each other. It’s extremely heart warming!

I still have so much I want to do and want to have. I don’t know if I’m being greedy but there are just so many things I want.

1. A bigger house. (with the corresponding money to maintain it of course) I want one with a big yard where Andrea can run to her heart’s content. I also want a short office area for me…plus a nice nice kitchen for Ruy.

2. A big time vacation or a cruise for Ruy and myself.  We’ve never gotten around to going anywhere fun since we’ve gotten married. I’m not sure if I will have the heart to leave Andrea for a long period of time so this one is not so urgent.

3. A day with Mac (my favorite stylist) with nice hair color, hair cut, manicure, pedicure, etc. I somehow feel guilty every time I plan on going to a salon. I feel like that should be time I’m spending with Andrea. It’s sick I know.

4. MONEY!! Sometimes I just want to take my entire family and Ruy’s family out on a trip…but I can’t afford to do that. It’s so frustrating.  Sometimes I see people who need huge amounts of money and I can’t give it to them…that frustrates me too.

5. Good food! Well I eat good food every weekend but you can never have enough of this …hehehe

Hmmm, this wishlist is kinda short.