April 2, 2009

Pardon me. I’m in a very lazy mood and I cannot even imagine writing paragraphs. I will be using bullet points again today.

• I finally realized what I’m really good at and what I really want to do with my life. This is a very exciting thing for me.
• I don’t know what it is about Sunday meriendas but they really make me feel good.
• I wonder if Andrea would ever know the extent of my love for her. I guess that’s my role as a mom huh? To make sure she understands this.
• When I was in a bad state of depression and wanted to do bad things to myself, what stopped me was the thought of my grandmother and Ruy crying.
• I had two criteria for choosing a boyfriend among my suitors before. 1. They should love me more than I love them (which was something my mother said in passing and really stuck to me somehow) and 2. If they’re worth the fight I would have with my mother if ever she found out I had a boyfriend. Needless to say,  a lot of guys didn’t make it because of these two.
• I never really understood just how influential a mother can be until I wrote those down. Wow, my mother unknowingly chose my husband.
• When I see my old team sad, it literally breaks my heart.  It also makes my want to buy Macky’s….hahaha
• I’m beginning to enjoy cooking.
• I always try to annoy my grandmother by insisting that I cook better than her.
• I can only cook around 5 things.
• It’s ridiculous how fiercely loyal I am. It takes a lot of really bad things before I will even consider ending friendships or relationships.
• My old job and motherhood has taught me so much about who I am and what I really want.
• I sometimes worry that Andrea might end up exactly like me…and it makes me sad that this thought worries me.
• It has crossed my mind in the past that maybe there is someone out there who would be better equipped to raise Andrea…then I realize just how ridiculous that is.
• I don’t think Ruy knows that I am really looking forward to watching American Idol with him every week.
• I love love love watching Iron Chef and Top Chef but I always end up so hungry after. =(
• Expectant mothers should all be required to attend a motherhood training thing before giving birth…it should be in the law or something.
• It amazes me that one of the most motherly person I know (my aunt) does not have a biological child.
• Andrea’s 6 chicks are turning out to be really matakaw teenaged chickens…if Ruy ever pulls another stunt like that (bringing home pets) I will throw a serious tantrum…and not sleep in the house till he returns the pet.

You see how messed up my thoughts are?