(With music from The King and I)
“Whenever I feel afraid,
I whistle a happy tune…”
Yup, I was whistling a whole lot last Thursday. I had a meeting with the company CEO the next day and I was beyond nervous. I really hadnothing to worry about. I’ve done everything I’m supposed to do behind the scenes and on the stage. I’ve kept everything that’s supposed to be kept, I’ve said everything (well almost everything) that’s supposed to be said. I shouldn’t be nervous. But NO…I was nervous.
I hate going to meetings unprepared, specially if these meetings are with the company CEO who I only get to really talk to around once or twice a year. The problem is, this CEO rarely gives an agenda for our meetings, and when he does…you only stick to it for around 5 minutes.
It’s vital to be ready for anything and everything.
“Just for him!
Though the man may be
My Lord and Master,
Though he may study me
As hard as he can,
The smile beneath my smile
He’ll never see “
He told me he was very pleased with something I recently did. I said thank you but my face remained blank. He stared at me for a really long time trying to decipher what I’m really thinking and feeling. I was inwardly rolling my eyes. There’s no way he will be able to tell what’s really going on in my head. I have mastered the blank expression I use in meetings. I only show emotions I want to show….nope, there are practically no slips here. Ruy can attest to how good I am with my blank and stoic emotions.
Some might wonder why I choose to keep my expression stoic when the statement was good….because it can’t always be good. If he sees how I react to a good statement and compares to how I would react to a negative comment…then I become too transparent…and that’s not good. I loose my calm and logical demeanor. I like hearing everything he has to say first…then stewing over things for days and weeks…before I show emotions.
3 days after the meeting…I’m softly whistling another happy tune. *sigh* This is tough.
While shivering in my shoes
I strike a careless pose
And whistle a happy tune
And no one ever knows,
I’m afraid.


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