July 23, 2008

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Feeding My Baby 

My laptop’s been going crazy for days. I apparently have 13 threats in my pc. My ear phones aren’t working properly, my office chair lost one of it’s wheels and is now lopsided. My office desk has one drawer which won’t open properly. WHAT IS HAPPENING? It’s as if the heaven’s contrived to make sure I barely get any work done. I think I’ll have to start looking at better computer desks, anti virus softwares and computer chairs just to guarantee that I can keep working. Argh!

Things have been quite difficult lately. It’s really demotivating to have to trudge day after day after day wondering “What next? What else could possibly go wrong?”. It’s tiring and it’s really taking a toll on me.

I sometimes wonder why it has to be so hard. I am not really planning anything grand or anything bad. I just want to do things which will put my life and Andrea’s in order. I guess I’m still reaping the results of several bad decisions and missteps from the past. I just wish it were a little bit easier and simpler. I seriously have been setting my life on track and I’m working really hard to make sure this happens…but there are just too many problems that pop-up…sigh.

Looking at the big picture I know my problems are almost petty it’s not like my husband’s cheating or I’m in a job I hate or I’m suffering from mesothelioma. I know this in theory but it’s getting harder and harder to remember this fact.