December 11, 2007

Desperate times usually calls for desperate measures and that’s why people end up clutching at straws and doing things out of desperation which usually makes their situation worse. One such situation which people might consider dire and desperate is being swallowed up by debt.  Luckily there are some companies which offer bad credit loans for people who are not doing so well financially but still need the best option out there. This company will allow you to screen all the lenders to find one which suits you best.

Desperate Times need not be so desperate after all.

Have I told you guys that Andrea has 3 baby cribs and one baby bed? It’s insane isn’t it? Trust me, Ruy and I didn’t go crazy shopping for baby furniture, it’s our parents who did.  The first crib was bought by my in-laws when Andrea was born. It basically stays in our room but in a few months it should be permanently fixed in Andrea’s room. The second crib was borrowed from my nephew. My grandmother insisted on having that crib in her house so that Andrea has room to play whenever she is there (which is practically everyday)….then my in-laws said that Andrea has no room to move when she’s in the sala so they bought another playpen for her.

The baby bed? It was actually my sister’s toddler bed.

Every day of the week I leave Andrea at my grandmother’s house. She’s there with her yaya, my grandmother, my grandmother’s sister and another maid. 

I have mentioned time and again just how grateful I am to have this kind of support stemming from my family and Ruy’s family. I have peace of mind knowing that Andrea’s well taken cared off ALL THE TIME. There are just some things people do that annoy me and I just have to share this with you all.

 Andrea’s seperation anxiety is reaching it’s peak now. So much so that she would hold on to me even when she’s drinking milk in her crib as long as she sees me dressed up already.  All books advise moms to tell their babies that their leaving to make the children feel that they are not being abandoned. I try to do this with Andrea when she’s awake.

Andrea was tearing up when I was about to leave so I said goodbye properly and then left. I then heard my grandaunt say “Wala na si Mommy mo…ano…wala na”…in a taunting voice.

I don’t get it! What was the point of that? I didn’t react today as Andrea doesn’t understand it all…but I’m not going to allow that when Andrea already understands what’s being said. The last thing I need is for my daughter to feel a complex just because I go to work.  I never felt that with my mother despite the fact that she worked practically 7 days a week and I don’t want Andrea to have any issues. Aaaargghh now the question is how do I teach an old dog new tricks?

My little girl who has more attitude than hair. =)

If you would look at my bookshelf (that’s if I had a bookshelf) you would see rows and rows of self-help books. I am obsessed with making myself better in terms of achievement, behavior, thinking etc.

It’s so easy to fall into self-deprecating thoughts and damaging behavior and to be honest I’ve done this one time too many.  One thing which really helped me is my weekly session with a shrink who employed hypnosis. I don’t know how or why but it helped me a lot.

I’m dying to go back for these sessions but unfortunately time and money are not abundant right now. Luckily I chanced upon a wbesite which offers hypnosis downloads. When I first saw it I didn’t understand what it meant, upon further inspection I saw that they have canned hypnosis for a variety of problems and situations. This is wonderful as it will allow you to do it at your own time and at your own pace. The fact that one download costs so much less than my sessions with my shrink makes it SO MUCH BETTER! I am currently overwhelmed with the variety of sessions they offer that I can’t choose one right away but I’m leaning towards something already.

They also offer a No Questions Asked Money Back Guarantee which is something very brave for them to do. I can only assume that they are that confident with their product.

http://www.instant-hypnosis.com/

Jen, what do you think? Is this our solution to a va-va-voom body?

This morning I went to this small shopping center where I ran some errands.  I basically paid credit card bills, water bills, mobile phone bills etc.  I was literally drained at 11:30 in the morning. How can one be so tired a few hours after waking up? 

I am not complaining about my situation…despite all the drama I LOVE my life! I have a job I adore and one that keeps me wanting to go to work and I have Andrea. Ruy and I are also constantly working on making the marriage thing work. Another blessing is the fact that we have a wonderful support system in our extended families. My in-laws are wonderful and are always trying to help out and my family will insist on helping out even when it’s not necessary (yes they’re kulit that way).

I sometimes feel like my life is just a continuous pattern of trying to get everything done, trying to meet deadlines, trying to make the budget fit while trying to keep everyone happy. It’s tiring and frustrating at times. I rarely hear people complain about their lack of time to be just them. It’s not about shopping or going to the parlor…it’s about being YOU. I chanced upon this magazing called Working Mom (the latest issue) and started reading it while waiting for my number to be called…there’s this article that tugged my heartstrings in all angles. It completely captured what I was experiencing and feeling. Let me give you guys a clip from the article:

The office is actually the one place I recover some of the old me. I can run projects with brisk efficiency and take a client to a restaurant without having to cut up his food. But that’s the office. I’m in trouble if work is the only place where I can relax.

“My life is here somewhere,” I thought realizing that I didn’t want those single girls’ definition of fun — I wanted mine. — Joy Perez, Working Mom Magazine Dec. 2007-Jan. 2008

I wish I could share the rest of the article with you but I don’t want to plagiarize anything. This woman captured what I have been going through lately and I swear I want to hug her. It’s nice to know you’re not alone

When I was in the US, my friend directed me to this particular which sells Phone Cards specifically for the Philippines. It allowed me to spend hours on the phone without breaking the bank. I was looking for something similar when I went to Paris. I had a disaster with my Mobile phone’s global roaming and it ended up extremely hard for me to get in touch with my family.

It was a giant pain I’m telling you and I looked around and around Paris but I couldn’t find a store selling these kinds of phone cards. I am now beating myself on the head and wondering why I didn’t look for stuff online.  If I did I would have seen this site which offers international phone cards. Look at how affordable all these rates are!

I think I’m going to show this to my cousins in the US. This would save them a few hundred dollars in a month.  I mean look at this, for 20 dollars they would be able to talk to their loved ones for 412 minutes!! That’s almost 7 hours.  I think this is the best deal out there and I hope people get to take advantage of this during the Christmas season.