August 2006

Had a sort of rift with Ruy last night. Started at around10pm. We were talking about our living arrangements after the wedding. See, we’ve talked about this in the past through text, but I never thought of whatever we talked about as final. I always though stuff as serious as that deserved face to face conversations. With Ruy however, if something was discussed through SMS, then it’s set. This has caused several issues in the past…I was accused of changing things which were already set when in reality in my head nothing is final until we sit down and talk about it.

What really threw me off was when Ruy started asking if I was sure about getting married. I was trying to rationalize staying in my lola’s place cause 1. It’s nearer, 2. Saves gas, 3. Saves travel time, 4. Saves me from fatigue. Take today for example. I got to work before 7am. I had to leave my lola’s house at 6:30…I’ll be going home at around 8 and I’ll probably reach my lola’s house a little before 9. If I always stayed in Ruy’s house then I’d have to wake up at least  30 minutes to 1 hour earlier and go home 30 minutes to 1 hour later. I know it seems like a small thing, but in my current condition being this tired and all…I want to take all the rest I could take.

It had nothing to do with the choice to get married or not, it’s all about practicality and reality. Another thing is there are always people picking me up and driving me to work when I’m in my lola’s house. I really appreciate (and need) this right now. I don’t expect Ruy to do this…no it’s not because he’s unwilling but his job is at the opposite side of the world.

The fight came to a halting stop at around 12 midnight when i raised the white flag. My tummy was hurting so bad I was crying, no it wasn’t LBM or constipation or anything obvious like that. It was just hurting so bad.

When things like that happen I don’t know what to do. It’s too late to call a doctor, telling my grandmother or calling my mother would just cause more panic than it’s worth. It’s not like anyone can do anything about it anyway, it just sucks having to go through it alone.

So I was finally able to sleep at around 2:30am. The pain was not yet gone then but it became tolerable. I also forced myself to sleep cause I was supposed to wake up at 4:30am…of course I wasn’t able to. I ended up waking up at around 5:30…gulping down my cereals taking a quick bath and speeding off to work.

It’s going to be another long day. I’ll be in the office for around 13hours today…I’m sick!

I’m drowning with everything that’s happening in my life.

Work, yes the work that I love is beginning to be overwhelming. I have so much I need to do and so little time to do them. My fault for setting unrealistic deadlines. Oh well…working 12 hour days doesn’t seem to be helping though…24 hours maybe?

Wedding. Our Civil Wedding is set on Sept. 8 and it’s really stressing me out. Ruy’s family is having issues because of the brother getting seriously ill, which makes Ruy very irritable and sensitive. I ask a small question and we end up getting into a fight. He’s stressed and so am I that’s why we’re clashing. I told him I give up, I don’t need this extra stress…I told him he and his family could take care of everything, I’ll just pay for whatever needs my share and I’m done. Of course that’s not what’s happening right now. I’m still the one stressing over it.

Wedding Rings. The designer called and told me that she couldn’t find diamonds that fit the size which I wanted, would I mind having bigger diamonds instead? HELLO!!! Are you kidding? Of course I don’t mind! My half eternity ring with 4 diamonds (and 3 sapphires) would now have a combined total weight of 0.48 carat. Not bad…i’m happy! Problem is…Ruy doesn’t know yet…hehehe

Family. My lola’s unhappy about the fact that I’ll be living with Ruy (even if it’s only during the weekends), she wants me there with her at home…typical lola.

Andrea. Andrea’s being very nice now. Not causing any problems…good girl!

I have been so busy lately with work and with the latest developments in my life that I have been neglecting a lot of the other aspects of my life, blog included. Imagine my surprise when I looked at my blog today to see that I already have a thousand views for this blog. WOW! Thanks to everyone who regularly visit this blog, please drop me a line so I can link you up. =) Read the rest of this entry »

A very interesting picture taken by Nicky. The funny thing about this is people have been bugging me about how I was really feeling my pose. The thing is, I didn’t know I was included in the picture. So I stood there and tried to stay out of everyone’s way…hahaha

Today Ruy’s little brother, Quitos, will undergo another lung surgery. Help me pray for his safety, his immediate recovery and the sanity of his family. I’m sure it’s not easy for them specially since this is his second major operation this week!

Ruy had to work so he’s in the province right now but I’m sure this is driving him crazy.

It was a French holiday yesterday, it was the feast of the assumption. This meant that I had no work yesterday. I went back to my OB who told me that my PCOS is gone…cured! Yehey. No wonder why I’ve been losing weight like crazy.

What the hell is assumption day? I’ve never celebrated this ever. What does it mean?

Ruy picked me up about an hour later than he said he would. I was initially pissed but then how could you get mad at a person who’s been trying so hard to take care of his brother in the hospital? Kinda hard…so I was fine with everything.

We went to his client’s birthday party and I have to say that I’ve never seen so many food in a small house party ever. They were all so yummy but unfortunately I couldn’t eat a lot. What I ate was fantastic however…I loved it! It was very interesting seeing Ruy interact with his peers. I don’t get to see him do this often and so I relish the times I get to see it. His friends as I’ve mentioned in the past are so different from mine, I think we’re always a bit culture shocked when we are with each other’s friends (except for Carmi and Cyril, they’re just right)…hehehe

After that I asked him to go with me to Robinson’s Metroeast. You see I bought my grocery there the day before and I got millions of raffle tickets which I had to fill out at home.  We also looked at some stuff which was supposed to get us excited (in a non sexual way) but left us bored instead…hehehe. Arvi (Ruy’s cousin) arrived a short while later asking for some advice on what to give his girlfriend. Leave it to men to procrastinate huh?

We went around a bit more and I went home were I tried not to sleep by playing with my nephew instead. Then I slept.

It was such a simple weekend and I really felt so relaxed.  

My first quiet, calm, peaceful weekend in a long time. I actually liked it!

Saturday saw me waking up quite early and driving to the grocery to buy food for me. I bought so much I seem to have forgotten that I could go back another time. I bought Pineapple, Orange, Grapes (the fresh kind). 12 Fruit Cups (4 for each variety: mandarin oranges, peach halves and mixed fruit); 8 Yoghurt (in Mango); 2 huge boxes of my favorite Post Cereal (Banana Nut Crunch) and 4 boxes of milk. Those are only the healthy stuff. I also bought 4 rolls of Ritz Crackers (the only thing I can eat now without throwing up) and 2 bottles of Maggi Savor with Calamansi (this is actually the reason why I wanted to go to the grocery, problem is when I tasted it at home I didn’t want it anymore…hahaha I’m such a weirdo). Of course a trip to the grocery will never be complete without some toiletries; I bought a huge bottle of shampoo, wipes, and Ethyl Alcohol (I just learned through Dorothy that Isopropyl Alcohol is so much more dangerous than Ethyl, so it’s Ethyl all the way for me); I also bought Travel brush, 2 huge tubes fo Neutrogena Deep Clean Facial Wash…etc. One thing I bought which was not for me is this hand shower for my lola who’s been feeling dizzy lately I told her to stop using the pail and dipper and use the freaking hand shower!!

When I went home, I read, slept, played with the baby, ordered Pan Chicken (yes Ruy it’s the third time this week that I’ve eaten that freaking Pan Chicken) it’s just so damn good! I ordered the 3 piece panchicken and only ate 1. The rest was eaten by Nani and Mary….

Ruy and I applied for our marriage license today. I was sooooo thrilled with Ruy, he really prepared for today! He went to the city hall armed with the forms which were already filled out! Awwwww…Ruy’s becoming just as OC as me…I love it!

The funny thing is this, the marriage license application form has 2 parts one part to be filled out by the girl and another to be filled out by the guy. Ruy had 2 forms in which he filled out the boy part, meanwhile I had  forms which I got myself and the girl parts are filled out.

Ruy insisted that we use his forms because he spent a lot of time trying to make his writing nice. Hahaha, it takes a lot of Ruy’s effort to do that. =)

Would you believe that the entire process of getting a marriage license in Marikina took less than an hour?

When something great happens to me I cannot help blurbing it to everyone. That’s just the way I am. The news last Tuesday got me so excited so naturally half of the office knows already. It’s so sweet seeing people get excited with me. I really feel so blessed having found a company with people I genuinely like. (and people who can stand my ramblings)

It was a bit difficult seeing Ruy’s reaction. He says he’s happy. I’ve seen him happy…that wasn’t happy. He says he’s worried about his brother’s condition so his mind is whirling right now. I understand that, but I never thought people can only feel one emotion. You can be worried and extremely happy about two different things at the exact same time.

My mom’s been adorable about everything. I honestly didn’t expect anything else.

Today’s my birthday and I woke up to 5 text messages. The first one came from Affie. Who would have thought that affie would be the first to greet me? Next was YNA, a highschool friend whom I haven’t seen since highschool, my mom was the third, an aunt was the fourth and Kresta a former office mate was the first.

I did expect receiving texts, although not in this order. I expected my first text from Ruy (as we were texting till 11:54 last night). Then I thought Carmi (my bestfriend) would be the second greeter cause we used to have this midnight tradition of greeting each other during midnight. (of course this tradition has been dying as we’re both working now) third was my aunt, yeah she’s always one of the first to text for whatever occassion. Then my mom, to be honest those were the only texts I expected so it was such a pleasant surprise to have greetings from people.

Mike de Villa gave me the most adorable online card and it got me laughing for 3 whole minutes…thank you MICHAEL!

It’s one of those days. I was supposed to go to LTO today to renew my license which will expire tomorrow but I completely forgot. Now I have no choice but to go to LTO on my birthday! Damn it…

Another thing, I wanted to party with people here in the office (I just bought the latest Sergio Mendez cd which is perfect for partying) tomorrow night but unfortunately my mother told me she’s going to my grandmother’s house tomorrow together with my sister and stepdad so i have to be there with them.

I told Ruy that I wanted to have dinner with him tomorrow but it’s also not going to happen. His brother (Quitos) was rushed to the hospital and had to be operated on today. Of course Ruy needs to be there with him tomorrow.

So tomorrow, after work, I’m going to brave the rush hour traffic. I’ll probably spend 1-2 hours driving home and then spending 30 minutes with my mom and sister (who at that time would have eaten already). I’ll probably be eating by myself while they prepare to leave…

Waaaaaaah, that’s depressing. Maybe I should drive back to the office after. Hmmm, that sounds like a plan 

My grandmother is always so frustrated about the fact that I don’t care too much about my car. As long as it works, and it smells nice inside then I’m happy. My grandmother decided to take it upon herself to have some work done on my car yesterday. You see I left my car because Ruy drove me to and fro the office and so my grandmother had free reign on my car. I don’t know how she did it, the logistics escapes me right now but somehow she was able to have an alarm installed, and had all my lights changed to a higher quality light. She told me this is her birthday gift for me….I just found it hilarious. Whatever happene to grandmothers who baked pies and knit sweaters?

I go to work quite early. I’m usually in my office by 10 (trust me this is early in my office). Normally, I am the only one in my area in the office by that time. It works very well for me as I get to concentrate on my task at hand and I have very minimal distractions.

So here I am in my office working on my laptop focusing on the complicated excel file which I was working when I suddenly heard footsteps. I didn’t pay attention to it cause people normally walk around here anyway. I then felt someone pass behind me while still hearing the footsteps. I turned around and said “John?”…thinking it was the network guy installing the new software in the PCs. Nope, there was no John. I went to every cubicle but NADA, there was no one there.

Needless to say I’m a bit freaked out right now.

Ruy and I have been looking forward to going to Sagada for the past 2 months. Now that our planned trip is drawing nearer I was beginning to have doubts. This morning, while Ruy drove me to work, I asked him “Do you think it’s safe to drive to Sagada when it’s raining like this?”.

I was hoping Ruy would say “No problem!” or “Of course it is!”. Sadly he said he thinks it might not be safe for us to push through with the trip if the weather remains the same. I have already gone on leave for that week so I have two choices…either retract my leave and work work work (which is quite sad) OR Ruy suggested that we still go on a road trip…to where? We have no idea! That’s the fun part! We’re going to be driving to nowhere and everywhere without knowing where we’re going. FUN!  I think this will cost us a lot more than the Sagada trip though so I’m still thinking about this…..waaaaaaah I hate the rain.