September 2005

Ruy and I are fighting right now. We probably want to strangle each other at the moment. Yet I can honestly say I love him so much. And he said the same to me…

It’s during times like these when I’m confirmed that I’m making the right choice in marrying him. If you can honestly say that you still love somebody while in the middle of a fight, you must have something special.

Yesterday I was driving to work when I heard some weird meowing sounds. It seemed to be coming from inside the car. I thought this was another weird gimick of Gwen Stefani whose song was playing in the background. I turned of the radio but what do you know, the meowing is still there, louder than ever.

At this point it’s important to point out that I hate cats. I don’t have any at home and I once inflicted serious harm on a cat when I was 5 years old, so a cat has no business being INSIDE my car.

I stopped the car to listen. The meowing is still there. SHIT! I called Ruy on my cell

LIV: “Ruy there’s a meowing sound in my car!!!”
RUY: What meowing sound?
LIV: Like a sound of a cat IN my car.
RUY: (laughing at my distress) Why don’t you check under your car to see if there’s a cat there
LIV: I don’t want to see a bloody and mangled cat…I’m so freaked out! (at this point I was laughing and crying at the same time)
RUY: Okay here’s what you do, go to a machine shop and have them look at it okay?
LIV: OKAY!

(FLASHBACK: When I was in my senior year in college we had to dissect a cat. I named my cat Armida. I was one of the few people who actually took her cat home. Armida stayed at the trunk of my car for around 3 months. Yes yes I know it’s not safe carrying around a skinned and formalin-laden cat but I’d gladly take that risk rather than a./Having my cat stolen like what happened to some people or b./ Having a maggot infested cat, eeew. So Armida lived in the trunk of my car. When I was hearing meowing sounds I seriously considered that I was being haunted by Armida!)

I followed my boyfriend, went to a machine shop and talked to the people there. While my car was parked people kept coming up to me to tell me “Miss your car is meowing” Grrr, I hear it to people! THe mechanic eventually told me that I have a cat stuck in my car’s chassis and that all I have to do is park it for a long time and the cat might eventually go out….

I HATE CATS!

No other supplier has ever made me feel this way. When Alex confirmed that yes he’s available during and that yes he’ll make my cake for me I felt goosebumps all over me. I’ve never been this excited over a supplier before!

Alex Franco is really a dream come true for me in terms of my wedding. I just have to say I’m sooooooooo Happy!

Sometime’s I’m jealous. Jealous of the girls whose boyfriends have time to see them. Of those whose boyfriends actually see them. Those who’d lose sleep just to be with them. Of guys who’d surprise them at work, at home, in the car. Not all the times, just sometimes…

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It was a fantastic night for both of us. Ruy picked me up at 640 to go to the 7:00 buffet at Paseo Uno. To cut the short story even shorter, we got lost. Ruy thought Mandarin was in Manila. I only questioned his Route when we were already in Recto. One hour and 20 minutes later we were finally in Mandarin.

It wasn’t so funny at that time, in fact I was a bit pissed as I couldn’t believe he didn’t just ask me where Mandarin was. When I told him this he told me “I thought I knew where it was, why would I ask you when I thought I knew the answer!”…I had to laugh. Things were okay after that.

We realized that the reason God allowed us to get lost is to make sure we were hungry enough for the buffet. We enjoyed the buffet so much, maybe too much for me. =) It was worth every penny…

After that we went to my company party where this picture was taken. It was so much fun introducing Ruy to the people I work with. It was also great for RUy to finally see the people I’ve been telling him about. Ruy was entertained (to say the least) with the sitcom I call office.

I’ve been crying a lot lately. This is strange coming from someone who used to believe that crying is a sign of weakness. But I’ve been crying for various reasons:

1. Ruy has been snapping at me all day yesterday. When I talked to him and asked him about his day…well let’s just say he wasn’t so welcoming. I know it was partly my fault. His reaction is still an aftermath of the fight and the frustration we both went through last Sunday. I was asking him and he was replying not so nicely. I got a bit fed up and eventually we put down the phone and I stayed in my car crying. Glad to say we’re okay now, but I still wish we didn’t have to go through that.
2. Today, I went shopping for Michael’s birthday. I bought more liquor for his party, all in all i spent more than 2 thou on liquor. Then I pass by this old man begging and I felt so bad that I spent thousands on liquor and this man barely had anything to eat… =(

Tagged by Heidi!
Ok… let’s do this!

Seven Things That Scare Me
1.) Losing my cellphone, my only link to Ruy
2.) The death of my grandmother
3.) Failure of my upcoming marriage
4.) Failure of my upcoming marriage because of me
5.) Lizards..you have no idea how many times this animal has made me cry
6.) Losing myself
7.) Living in mediocrity

Seven Things I Like The Most
1.) Watching the stars
2.) Night time
3.) Romantic dinners, dinner dates
4.) sleeping in
5.) Make-up
6.) hugs
7.) talks…long talks

Seven Random Facts About Me
1.) I have one sister
2.) I’m going to be a make-up artist…once I become confident enough
3.) Like Heidi I graduated from premed but didn’t pursue medicine proper
4.) I need to have lists
5.) I’m detail oriented
6.) I nag Ruy to death…I don’t know why he still loves me so much
7.) I’m very thoughtful

Seven Important Things In Our Bedroom
1.) A cross, or an image, somewhere I can pray
2.) Pillows
3.) Books, I have so much ready, depends on my mood
4.) pen and paper for making lists
5.) Cellphone
6.) Cordless phone
7.) big bed

Seven Things I Plan To Do Before I Die
1.) Visit Greece
2.) Buy my mom a Rolex
3.) Buy my sister a life a insurance
4.)Be a make-up artist
5.) Meet MAdonna
6.) I want to get married sana pero kawawa naman si Ruy he’d be a widower agad
7.) Have a son

Seven Things I Can Do
1.) I can put on make-up on people and make them look pretty
2.) I can speak English
3.) I can make Ruy love me even if I’m being a brat …=)
4.) I can go on for 40 hours without sleeping
5.) I can drive like a taxi driver
6.) I can blog!!! Finally natuto rin
7.) I can spurt out psychobabble

Seven Things I Can’t Do
1.) I can’t live without Ruy…naks!
2.) I can’t date around…I’m engaged people!
3.) I can’t sleep when I’m excited
4.) I can’t survive in Pinoy Big Brother
5.) I can’t not eat fruit
6.) I can’t stay mad at Ruy
7.) I can’t eat ampalaya

Seven Things That Attract Me To The Opposite Sex
1.) Speaks English Well
2.) Sophisticated Sense of Humor
3.) Witty
4.) Thoughtful
5.) Smells really good
6.) Sense of Responsibility
7.) Open to PDA

Seven Things I Say The Most
1.) Damn
2.) Shit
3.) What the fuck?
4.) Pwede ba?
5.) You’ve got to be kidding me
6.) Seriously
7.) God

Seven Celeb Crushes (Whether Local or Foreign)
1.) Ricky Martin
2.) Usher
3.) Tyrese
4.) no more
5.)
6.)
7.)

Seven People You Want To See Take This Quiz
1.) Van
2.) Ruy
3.) Carmi
4.) Cyril
5.) Elle
6.) Geri
7.) Dorothy

Ruy and I went to the Wedding Expo at the NBC TENT last Saturday. Needless to say it was so much fun and Ruy was such a great sport through it all. Imagine he went with me looking at jewelries, cakes, invites and photographers.

We won an arrhae from Matus and I was so excited. I felt that it was a sign from God saying that he’ll be blessing our life together. (okay I might be over reading things but who cares!).

I think one thing that really made me so happy was our chat with Ronald of Balay Kandila. We weren’t sure if we could affor his services so we wanted to just order some materials to be used for our centerpieces. Ronald asked us “Bakit? Ayaw niyo ba ako doon?” to which I replied “Gusto! Gustong gustong gusto!”. He then told me to just meet with him, he’ll design the centerpieces and then he’ll see if there are things that we can do ourselves para tipid. I wanted to hug him!! Ang saya!!

Thanks so much for enduring the heat, exhaustion, and hunger Ruy!

I was reading a book which teaches a different kind of prayer. I tried it last night and it’s amazing how gratifying it feels. You realize that yes, I’ve been so blessed..Here’s a part of my prayer last night.

Dear God,

You’ve been so good to Ruy and myself. Thank you for choosing us for each other. Thank you for giving us the chance to spend a lifetime with the person we love.

Thank you for Ruy. Thank you for the ability you gave him to do all the things he has to do for his job this week. Thank you for giving him faith. Faith in you and in himself, faith that he will be able to accomplish everything he needs to no matter how difficult it may seem…

I’ve been battling with depression for a long time and finally after years and years of tears I’m finally over it. Ofcourse I didn’t do it alone, I had my mother who pushed me to get better and who paid for my 700 peso an hour therapy. And of course Ruy…

Ruy once told me after driving me to one of my sessions with my shrink “I’m not going to leave you just because you’re screwed up.” Luckily, Ruy’s one of those people who never back down from their promises. His resilience throughout the ordeal has been amazing, I can’t imagine anyone going through all of that for me. And he did.

Today everything is more or less better. I have a job which I absolutely love. My boss is so much fun and so perfect for me. I love my working hours, my officemates, etc. And the salary is not that bad. I’m about to be regularized this week and I’m so amazed at how God has led me to this amazing job and to this amazing life.

Ruy has continued supporting me even if I don’t need it as much as before. He’s been so steadfast despite my hormonal fluctuations and PMS. I was PMS-ing last Monday and Tuesday and he kept on texting me stuff which eventually made me feel better…

RUY: GOOD MORNING!!! I miss seeing your beautiful face baby ko
RUY: Thanks for giving me the joy of simply knowing that I have you in my life
RUY: Baby i’m soooo proud to have such a beautiful girlfriend. I’m thinking that right now and I’m overwhelmed
RUY: Haaayyy, baby you simply gie me strength to hurdle every challenge in my life and live my life to the fullest. Thank you

Sarap! How can you not love this guy? Anyway I was thinking about all this things I have and I can’t help but be greatful, it’s amazing how much God has blessed me now.